I have created a monster and I don’t know what to do about it.
About a month and a half ago Thijs stopped being able to be easily transitioned from asleep in my arms to lying down. Not a big deal at nap time, I love baby snuggles, but it’s becoming a pretty big obstacle at night time. After nursing him to sleep, every single time I tried to lay him down next to me in bed (we bedshare) we would wake up. He used to sleep on my chest most of the time, but he was just getting too big and would try to roll off all the time. After quite a few sleepless nights and migraines for me I decided I had to try something else so that I could get a at least a wee bit more sleep.
First, there were a couple nights I tried sleeping sitting up. If you were considering this I’ll spare you the trouble, it was a bad idea. I woke up feeling like my neck was about to fall off.
Then, I decided to try nursing lying down with Thijs next to me. It required a lot of pillows and some strange sleeping positions, but it was sort of working. At least I was feeling slightly less like a zombie. There were a lot of sore e hips, neck, arms, etc. involved. Someone remind me why I didn’t have a baby 5-10 years ago when I was young and spry.
So, I still wasn’t getting much sleep and felt like I had been hit by a truck each morning (again why no babies at 20?)and Thijs was starting to take up more space. I decided to try transitioning him to his crib. His crib is sidecarred, so essentially still the same bed, just a baby extension 🙂 This has been a work in progress since October 24th. I bet you can guess how well that is going.
I’m on day 3 of a migraine. I would guess that I’m getting about 2-3 hours of sleep each night (generous guess). I am so sleep deprived I paid our mortgage twice this month and forgot to pay the rest of the utilities. I feel like a zombie and am so tired I can barely think straight.
The good news is that he usually goes to sleep pretty easily. We can tell when he is getting tired and get him ready for bed between 7-8 and he falls asleep nursing pretty quickly. The bad news is that he doesn’t stay asleep. I lay him in his “crib” after he is in a deep sleep. He sleeps there from anywhere between 20 minutes to 3-4 hours (okay that’s only happened like twice). He wakes up crying and looking for me (aka boob) and I bring him next to me to nurse and we go back and forth, side to side ALL NIGHT LONG. It’s like the all night buffet is there and open so he can’t say no. My baby is addicted to nursing. I don’t think it’s a hunger thing, he’s eating about 12 oz a day while I am at work which is on the higher end for a breastfed baby.
I don’t know what to do anymore. Sometimes I think I should sit up to nurse him when he wakes up and then lay him back in his crib and hope for longer increments of sleep. Sometimes I think this is just a wild phase we are going through (4 month wakeful) and it will pass (hopefully soon). I’m in the you can’t spoil a baby camp and don’t want to deprive him if he needs mommy snuggles all night long, but something has to give. I have intentions of trying the first option, but then I get too tired and just keep him next to me all night. I don’t want to do any sort of crying it out. I think he’s much too young and am 99.9% sure he’d cry for at least an hour. Advice anyone out there in the internets? Just tell me it gets better.
I’ve also wondered if it’s a diaper issue. We cloth diaper and he is pretty soaked when we change him in the morning. I wonder if he doesn’t like feeling wet. I am going to try some fleece liners and see if that makes a difference at all.
Hoping for more of these moments soon.